I’m going to try my damndest to write in here every day. About my days. Every day. Exciting or boring. Sad or happy. I’m documenting.
Right now I’m sitting at the end of the night eating old Welch’s fruit snacks that kind of taste like farts while Clay keeps interrupting my writing by talking to me. Which feels very on brand for life lately — trying to focus while being pulled in a million directions.
The day started sleepy. I set my alarms for 5:00 and 5:30 like usual, but when Clay grabbed me and tried to keep me from getting up, I relented and slept until almost 7. It felt good and terrible at the same time. Good because sleep. Terrible because I’m already stretched thin and behind.
I’m currently without a car until my transmission gets fixed, so Clay and I had to go to a quote at nine. I also had a project due yesterday that I was planning to turn in this morning. So there was that low-grade hum of stress running in the background from the moment I opened my eyes.
I didn’t get any work done before we left, which added to the stress. We went to the quote right after coffee — almost interfering with coffee, which honestly felt like the bigger threat. But Pat, the client, was so freaking nice. An old lady archer snowboarder teacher runner swimmer. Just awesome. The kind of person that makes you feel energized by proximity.
After that Clay dropped me off and I finished my project and turned it in. I even got positive feedback back, which felt really good. Like exhale good.
Then I tackled my budget plan and my to-do plan. It was stressful to face it all — car, marriage stuff, moving, money — but once I organized everything, I felt so much better. I have a lot on my plate right now. That’s just true. But today I didn’t avoid it. I faced it.
I also noticed that my irritation with Clay from this morning faded. I had documented it elsewhere, and by tonight it wasn’t sitting so heavy. That feels like growth, even if small.
I was supposed to go climbing with Jessie tomorrow, but I forgot about not having a car, so that might not happen. I didn’t work out today. It was a screen-only day, unfortunately. And I didn’t do my devotions, which I hate, because God gives me everything. But I did set aside tithe for all the money that has come in, and that feels like obedience and gratitude in action.
Overall, I got a lot done today.
Now I need to go make dinner.
Day one of documenting.